Guest post written by Albert M. Chan, the creator and star of “The Commitment,” a film about the journey of a gay adoptive parent.
As an actor and filmmaker, I was inspired to make the fictionalized short film “The Commitment” by my own roller coaster journey to become a gay adoptive parent. At the time, I didn’t know of any film that tackled the subject of domestic adoption, especially same-sex adoption, in an authentic way. So I made “The Commitment” to educate, entertain and move audiences with a depiction of both the most heartbreaking and the most joyous aspects of adoption, from the perspective not just of a married gay couple, but of birthparents and adoption professionals as well.
My husband and I started the domestic adoption process back in 2010. After deciding on an agency, we began to tackle the long checklist of requirements: registration forms, application forms, criminal background checks, FBI fingerprinting checks, child abuse checks, employment verifications, written references, online and in-person seminars, book studies, and homestudy meetings with an adoption social worker.
Once requirements are completed, couples usually wait about a year before being selected by a birthmother. But we had barely joined the pool of adoptive waiting parents, when we received the surprising news that a young pregnant woman had chosen us to parent her baby.
We had less than three weeks to prepare for the arrival of our baby boy. We selected a pediatrician, made arrangements to take time off work, borrowed a variety of baby items, chose a daycare, and maxed out the minutes on our calling plan. But on that important day when we were to meet the birthmother of our baby for the first time, the agency canceled our meeting. The birthmother had changed her mind and chosen to place her baby with family friends.
The loss was more emotional than we would have expected. I recall how unusually hard it was to talk to people, even when they were simply saying how sorry they were that it didn’t work out. Those familiar with domestic adoption had told us before we began that the adoption process is truly a roller coaster ride, and now we finally understood what they meant.
I dealt with the feelings of loss and disappointment the only way I knew how — I wrote “The Commitment.” As my character tells his husband at the end of the film, “There is a baby out there somewhere, and it’s making its way to us.” This realization helped me get through the remainder of the adoption process. Four unsuccessful birthparent matches and one year later, “The Commitment” went into production. Two weeks after the film wrapped, our beautiful son Andrew was born, the result of our fifth match. Andrew brings us incredible joy, and I can’t possibly imagine it any other way: We were meant to be together.
Fast-forward to summer 2016, when Andrew was almost five years old. My husband and I had been waiting to adopt a second baby for over a year, and in that time period, we had several potential matches fall through. Then one morning, while we were in the midst of mourning yet another unsuccessful match, I received an email out of the blue from the adoption agency that facilitated Andrew’s adoption. They explained that a baby was born earlier that day and asked if we were interested. We said yes, making sure to keep our optimism in check. The next day, on our way to celebrate Father’s Day with our family, we received a phone call that confirmed the birthmother wanted us to parent her baby. We learned that the birthmother, who is Chinese (specifically Cantonese), was looking for a gay couple and preferred a Chinese home. I am Cantonese as well. Just as in Andrew’s case, I felt that Justin was meant to join our family.
“The Commitment” has definitely struck a chord with people of all races and nationalities. The film is still going strong on the film festival circuit, having been shown at over 30 film festivals on four continents. It has been shown in countries where publicly showing gay films is a political act in itself. I’ve even had straight people tell me they identified with the film because they had suffered a miscarriage.
Love and loss are universal experiences, and I’m glad to see that as a society, we are generally moving in the direction where gender doesn’t matter anymore. As an actor and filmmaker, I’ve stayed on this theme with my latest project “Welcome to the World,” a first-person, confessional-style film about a man having trouble getting over the death of his boyfriend. The film presents, in real time, the journey of his awakening from isolation back to humanity.
“The Commitment” is available on Amazon as part of the gay shorts collection Green Briefs, available on DVD and via streaming. “Welcome to the World” will hit the film festival circuit in the latter half of 2017. For film trailers and the latest news, visit The Commitment Movie and Welcome to the World Movie.